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The Best Rapidshare search [10 Apr 2008|07:14pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

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[02 Apr 2008|11:34am]

Hey guys.. I'm ending my journal..Frankly I have no reason to write anymore. Because that reason already had left me.
If you have time to read, I have 116 entries.
But it'll all end at 116.
And..It wasn't as happy as any ending would be.

thank you to everyone.

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[13 Jan 2008|12:18am]

I'm Eric, Errr..I wanna share to you guys about my story but..It's too long. If you want to, You can go to my page and read what I wrote. =)

thank you.

 If you leave comments, much appreciated. =)
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[11 Jan 2008|10:29pm]
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[25 Apr 2006|09:29pm]

[ mood | bored ]

Im Alana and only 14 with a couple of shit lyrics for you all. Here it is and im bored.. 

'Pritty In Blood'

By __fire_at_will_

Breathing though these tight vains
barely seeing though the chain
finding away to save my self
before the night awarded its self

and though the darkness
i pray, i will find this future in a pointless mind
to see the light
in search of time
from love to fake
that does belive
it isnt what it wants to seem

so, show the world you fears
show them on your wrists
to skared to face her fears, the fears that carry on [and on] ...[AND ON]

with all the love in my heart
theres nothing we can do
i can cry a million tears but theres nothing i can do
we are so far, yet i can still hear you
just thinking, theres always the end to a beginning [end to a beginning]

and though the darkness
i pray, i will find this future in a pointless mind
to see the light
in search of time
from love to fake
that does belive
it isnt what it wants to seem

so, show the world you fears
show them on your wrists
to skared to face her fears, the fears that carry on........
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[21 Feb 2006|07:59pm]

i was accepted into loveisthebest! click here!
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[08 Dec 2005|02:54pm]

[ mood | creative ]

one of the craziest things about love...
it's Heaven on Earth...
and that's scary
one...because Earth is not Heaven...so you're afraid it's going to be taken away somehow
two...because Earth's imperfections found a place in your heart...and you're not wanting to let all of them go. maybe you're too used to be lonely and life being dull...and being contained. you're too used to needing to find a place in yourself. you found it. you found a place in someone else...and the feeling's so amazing you're scared it's too good to be true.

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and this... is what i want. [16 Oct 2005|09:42pm]

[ mood | loved ]

I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me how you feel...
I need to hear you tell me that I'm the one you're thinking of...
That when I'm not around, I'm never off your mind...
I want to know that when we're together,
the world's complete and that nothing can ever change that.
I need to feel secure,
to know that even though I'm not the only girl you've been with,
I'm the only one you want...

When you look at her, I want to know that you think she's beautiful,
but at the end of the day, the sun still rises and sets in my eyes.
I want to know that I'm not perfect,
but that you wouldn't change anything about me.
I need to know that I'm beautiful, not hot.
I need to know that I'm the one who makes you happy...
Who makes you feel as if you just couldn't do it without me...
I want to be your best friend, "one of the guys",
and the one you hold in your arms at night...
Honestly, I'd never be happier if you'd just be real with your feelings.. When I feel like this...
I'll never doubt you or question you..
I'll never be jealous or mad.
I'll just be happy...
Happy to know that I'm yours....

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What about l o v e. . . [02 Sep 2005|06:46pm]

[ mood | curious ]

Delete this if it isn't allowed.

Leave me a comment about love. Tell me anything you want to about love; what it means to you, how you feel in love, what you expect out of love. Anything. If you've never been in love, tell me what you think it will be like.

Please leave your comments on my lj on this entry (at my own lj) to make it easier for me. I plan on showing these to my boyfriend so that he can understand love without my biased opinion.

If you have any questions, leave a comment here. I know that I don't explain things well, so you have every right to be confused ^_^

Thanks a lot.

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[22 Aug 2005|08:52pm]

I just joined this community like 5 minutes ago and im very glad that i found it, because i need alot of advice on my situation:

theres this guy, that i care about alot, more than anyone ive ever cared about, he cheated on me once a couple of months ago and i forgave him, i went away for 1 month on vacation i come back and some people are telling me hes cheated again and others are saying its a lie, and he said he didnt do anything, but im so paranoid that hes done it again..and i dont know the truth, i love him but i dont know if ill ever be able to trust him like i used to..hes done alot of stupid things..and i dont know what to do..

Please help anyone?
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[23 Apr 2005|08:17pm]

[ mood | bored ]

hey im new here, im just a 16 year old emo kid at heart!!! i like makin new friends so if u add me ill add u!!

*I will draw a heart on my wrist
with your name on it so when i want to,
want to damage myself from the lack of being kissed,
i won't because i would never want to hurt you.*

my heart wants to speak its own
but over the past years
it has been so guarded
so sheltered from the world
it's afraid to speak
it's afraid of the empty responses
that will probably be consequences
afraid of dying right there
inside my body
leaving me alone

*I write these words in vain,
You won't read them
This pen would go to better use.
if I shoved it into your throat
and let you choke on
your blood-filled breaths
However we once called
each other friend,
So this pen continues to write words
that you ignore*

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Greatness [26 Mar 2005|05:52pm]

Man, even though no one commented on my last entry. I seem to be very happy that I got on the community. It seems to me that everything is going a lot better than it was. Im REALLY happy that my boyfriend and I are together and will be forever. We have been together for 5 years now. Seems like a patch to be made. Im happy. Im hoping that everything is going okay with Laura out there. I will be here if u ever need anyone, ANY OF U. So, hit me up. AOL: Whitney10Marie + MSN: butterflykizzez_08@hotmail.com
Catch ya'll later.
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Things are weird [24 Mar 2005|10:39am]
[ mood | crushed and lonely ]

Ok, so I'm really confused now, as you all know it's been a while since I've written in here and what not and alot has changed. Well..I'm still stuck on the same guy, I'll probly be stuck on him forever. He was there when I needed someone the most and ever since then...I duno. Well I stopped talking to him for a while, cause I couldn't take it anymore. I finally got him tucked away in a little peice of my heart...but then he changed all that in a couple of hours. He said things to me that I didn't realize, saying he cared and what not. I don't know he just came right back into my life. You can't do that you know. It's just not right. It hurts...*Sigh* I don't know what's going on with me anymore. I can't concentrate, I can't do shit. I haven't been eatting anything lately, cause I haven't been really hungry, but it's not that big of a deal...Well I should go don't wanna say anything I don't wanna say. So bye bye.

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Oh Meh...... [24 Mar 2005|09:33am]

Well, not everything is going good right now. Well, in a way it is....my boyfriend and I....we are together. But, like, we are ALWAYS arguing and everything. I cant freaking stand it. I dont know excatly what to do. I love him more than anything, he's my bestfriend along with my boyfriend. But, sometimes I think to myself, that all we should be is bestfriends, but then on the other hand, I feel like I can't live without him. So, I never leave him....well, hmm. I guess, Im just going to have to let time take its course and just let everything go. We will figure out how things are going to go when the time comes, ya never know what things are going to end either....I hope they dont end too soon. But, ya know how that crap goes. Welp, thanks, comment, please.
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Hi! [19 Sep 2004|03:14pm]
[ mood | confused ]

Hi, I just joined and I'm very confused. You see I like this guy right and I've liked him for some time. We've been friends for a long time and everything and he's really kool. But lately he's been busy alot and he has a new girlfriend. We don't talk much anymore and I feel like we're going serperate ways or something. You know what I mean? Anyways...I just know I still like him more then ever and when I do talk to him I like him even more. I think I have even fallin in love with him. I've told him this before. He says I don't care when I care about him more then myself. Why doesn't he understand this. I just want to tell him that I love him and I always will. But I guess it really doesn't matter.....

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[11 Aug 2004|08:44pm]

[ mood | exhausted ]

i gave you my heart. you broke it twice. i said i was over you forever and you didnt deserve me. it hurt so bad. and now. now, youre back. wanting to start over. it seems impossible. but i never officially ripped up the memories we made. now, those memories brush against me mockingly making me want what we had. no i cant do this i always get hurt. but i cant leave you. i should know better than to start over with you. but i cant leave you. i just cant.

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[24 Jul 2004|12:37pm]

[ mood | content ]

i just joined...literally moments ago. I was looking at communities that my LJ friends were a part of, and one of them (dizzee ) is a part of this community. I figured...what the heck, I'll join this. It seems like a great place to just...say whatever's on your mind if you are having a bad day in the heart department, and there's a support system. I like that. So anyway...this is Kristen speaking...hoping you all have a great day.

And that was me...rambling.

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fuck. [15 Jul 2004|09:29am]

[ mood | depressed ]

Thanks for making me feel like the only one.
You made me feel so special.. I actually believed you when you told me you "really loved" me. I gave you my fucking heart. MY WHOLE FUCKING HEART. You break it into tiny little peices..and those peices still love you even though the damage you have caused. Im like an emotional stress case. I cant sleep. Im not hungry any more, Im running out of tears, but they still keep coming. You were my first love. You made me trust you! I believe every word you told me! And I never thought you would do this to me. Not like this. I gave my heart to you. You know Ive never done that before. You told me you loved me, that I was the "the only girl for you". Then this. I don't even know why really. Why your doing this to me. You PROMISED you wouldnt end this. YOU PROMISED. YOU MADE A PROMISE TO MY HEART. And my heart believed you. Every word I uttered to you... I ment. I fucking ment. I wasnt bullshitting you when I told you I fell in love with you. I hate how you wont understand how I am feeling. How I gave you everything of me, trusted everything with you.. and tehn you pull this on me. I dunno what I am suppose to do. I wish I could change your mind. I wish.

If I knew you were going to do this to me... like this.. I would have tried so hard not to fall for you. I would have never given you my heart. I wouldnt have given you that other thing.. that thing I can NEVER get back. The thing you took. The thing I let you take. Because I trusted you. I love(ed) you Charlie Swiatek.

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[06 Jun 2004|09:01am]


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So over this.... [12 Nov 2001|01:59pm]

[ mood | cold ]

"He who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; he who does not ask a question remains a fool forever." -Chinese Proverb

I pondered...???

Ok. So I travel to school this morning. The inevitable signs of winter are showing themselves again. I stop for gas. Soft wisps of snowflakes fall upon me. Its cold and harsh. Dark clouds form in the distance...

I think about How much I hate winter. I hate the coldness, the numbness, the need for warmth. I hate that it kills all that is beautiful. I hate the fact that I was born of the first day of winter. I dont think I signify what is associated with Winter. I am so warm, loving, caring...all things that could be associated with the warmth of a summer day, right?

But it really doesn't matter when you are born, right?

Does the warmth of my heart melt away all that is cold? I dont really know? I think the warmth of my heart is so immense....I think about myself. If I am so loving, caring, kind, and sweet, and I have a great capacity for these things, then why is it not appreciated? Can I only share the love I have to give with some other being other then a human like a dog without conditions? Will I only be loved unconditionally by these innocent creatures? To have the capacity to love immensely and not share that with another person and receive it equally is really harsh, and cold....like the undying winters...

As I think back upon my name I think I was amply named. Coralinda, Wow...what it means! Beautiful heart. In the abstraction of the meaning of our heart, I do have a beautiful heart. I think about what I have and can share with others. I want to share what I have to offer. I dont want it to be just in the physical realm though. I don't want to just fade away in this life without anyone appreciating me for me. I want to share all that is beautiful within me and without me...

Then there is the question...

Why are people so cold? Why cant they be warm and kind? Why is it so hard? If you seek love, and want it more then anything else, yet are not willing to give it unconditionally then you will never find true love. You will alway lead a empty life. To say you love is not good enough. It must be shown....gifts that are merely trinkets of gold and silver do not mean you love. To love is such a powerful thing. You must live it, breathe it, feel it, want it, need it...to do these things then you will be so much closer to love. But we all must remember that in order to love it cannot have any conditions. It must be undying in spirit in all realms. It must be genuine and true, or else it will never be...

been over this before...

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