~Cora~ (vanillablossom) wrote in heartdirectory,
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So over this....

"He who asks a question is a fool for five minutes; he who does not ask a question remains a fool forever." -Chinese Proverb

I pondered...???

Ok. So I travel to school this morning. The inevitable signs of winter are showing themselves again. I stop for gas. Soft wisps of snowflakes fall upon me. Its cold and harsh. Dark clouds form in the distance...

I think about How much I hate winter. I hate the coldness, the numbness, the need for warmth. I hate that it kills all that is beautiful. I hate the fact that I was born of the first day of winter. I dont think I signify what is associated with Winter. I am so warm, loving, caring...all things that could be associated with the warmth of a summer day, right?

But it really doesn't matter when you are born, right?

Does the warmth of my heart melt away all that is cold? I dont really know? I think the warmth of my heart is so immense....I think about myself. If I am so loving, caring, kind, and sweet, and I have a great capacity for these things, then why is it not appreciated? Can I only share the love I have to give with some other being other then a human like a dog without conditions? Will I only be loved unconditionally by these innocent creatures? To have the capacity to love immensely and not share that with another person and receive it equally is really harsh, and cold....like the undying winters...

As I think back upon my name I think I was amply named. Coralinda, Wow...what it means! Beautiful heart. In the abstraction of the meaning of our heart, I do have a beautiful heart. I think about what I have and can share with others. I want to share what I have to offer. I dont want it to be just in the physical realm though. I don't want to just fade away in this life without anyone appreciating me for me. I want to share all that is beautiful within me and without me...

Then there is the question...

Why are people so cold? Why cant they be warm and kind? Why is it so hard? If you seek love, and want it more then anything else, yet are not willing to give it unconditionally then you will never find true love. You will alway lead a empty life. To say you love is not good enough. It must be shown....gifts that are merely trinkets of gold and silver do not mean you love. To love is such a powerful thing. You must live it, breathe it, feel it, want it, need it...to do these things then you will be so much closer to love. But we all must remember that in order to love it cannot have any conditions. It must be undying in spirit in all realms. It must be genuine and true, or else it will never be...

been over this before...
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